Regret

I just had my baby on the 7th and I've been id a pissy mood ever since. I cant sleep i cant eat i cant go to the bathroom with out being told I'm a bad person for not putting my baby first. I've been with him 24/7 and haven't even showed since he was born expert once at the hospital to clean up. My bf wont even pay attention to me any more cause all he does is spend time with the baby and play games. I think he was right when i first got pregnant...i should have aborted. I just feel so alone and depressed