Bad day. Sorry needed to let it out.

Today should have been a wonderful today. It being valentine's day and actually having someone to have it with. But instead I got the call from my Dr office saying that I had gestational diabetes. I've already got enough to worry about with my step son being autistic and this one having a chance. But no things just got worse. And I can't let my husband know how upset I am about it. It makes me sad knowing my body couldn't handle his son good. I can't let him see me break down and cry. I'm trying to be strong, but the risk of having something go wrong won't fade away. I'm just really worried. I really have grown to loves this baby. He wasn't planned because we already had 2 and weren't wanting more. But it happened and I love him already.