acne is ruining

Mild acne is ruining my life. I have hormonal acne. I have tried everything. Currently I ordered dermologica products to see if they work. My acne is only on one side of my face. I change my pillow daily, tie my hair back. Wash my face with aftican black soap. My diet is soo clean. But if i deviate from my diet, my acne multiplies by ten. Im just so depressed. I feel like when people look at me their looking at my acne. I barely even go out because of my breakouts. I cry everynight.   Im so fucken ugly.