giving up 😫

I think I've decided that if it doesn't work this month I'm not gonna try so hard anymore, i got pregnant first try in September and then had a miscarriage at 10 weeks and have been trying since and so far no luck it's just so upsetting and then to top it off my best friend got pregnant and her and her boufriend aren't even together anymore and I know she's not but I feel like she rubs it in my face. It seems so easy for people who don't want to be pregnant to get. Just so upsetting 😔 AF due in 2-5 days