Help! Me! Im losing my mind!

So lately ive been emotional really moody. Like ill cry for no good damn reason. Like if like im talking & my husband dont respond back i feel like im being ignored & ill cry. Ill just be so moody. Like yesterday my niece was crying i was getting super annoyed & im never like that i just got irritated. I wanted to snap. I mean i was never like this. But my light bleeding just stopped last night ive had for like 3 days. I was suppose to have my period on the 24th but ive had light bleeding it was weird & unnormal cause i am irregular. I know when my period comes on the 24th or after the 24th. . . but ive had a dream the other night. I was pregnant. But all i remember is that i tried to kill myself OD! Ive OD before but it felt real. Then yesterday my pastor talked bout suicide about people wanting to OD on their medicine to take away their pain. I started to cry cause the night before i had that dream. & yesterday i was eating pizza i ended up not wanting it i hated it. Tbh im in love with pizza. I love pizza anything italian i love but i ended up hating it. My sister in law told me that when i was sitting infront of her i stand up in church she said that she has a feeling im pregnant & thats her daughter put her head between her legs (Kinda dont belive that kind of stuffs). I told her that my dad thinks my sisters pregnant cause i told him im on bc. But heres the thing i only took it 3 times after that i stopped cause when we went to the beach all my pills gotten wet. But ididnt have time to get new ones. I dont wanna assume. But i think i am. But idk... & its pretty unnormal for me to have light period kinda cause before i started to have light period i was spotting. When i have periods i am super HEAVY like heavy HEAVY. & no i havent. We were trying to concieve first but then my therapist told me im to fat i should lost weight first. Thats why i was on bc. But i havent takenit after the 3rd pill.