So I have never received a gift from any guy on Valentine's Day.. ALL of my friends have & I've seen it. It's made me sad & feel ugly & just bad about myself. It's why when it comes, I'm not even excited for it. It's a whatever day for me. Normal. Tbh I wish that I wasn't even at school the day it all happens. All these couples and all this love I can't get cuz it's complicated for me. I have a boyfriend but this is gonna be our first Valentine's Day together. He goes to a different high school. Now the thing is.. He doesn't celebrate holidays so of course idk if he is even gonna get me something. The times that I did have a boyfriend eventually we never got to see each other or we'd break up before that day. I kinda do feel sad about that 😔 but ugh.. I don't wanna hint him anything. I want it to come from his heart.. His idea. Don't know how to feel. Not a big deal but idk I just feel like I need something from him that day to complete this feeling. & also don't expect a lot.. A nice night out with him would be amazing. His love is all I want but I don't even know if he'll be able to hang out. Not asking for gold rings & a million dollars. Just a first special day of my life. Anyone ever felt like this until they got something meaningful from their SO? I feel like a loser tbh ._. Ugh.
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