Anyone else not excited????

I'm going to be a single mom , don't know how involved her dad will be. But it's hard for me to look forward to my baby being here. The closer it comes to due date the harder it gets. I want to be happy but I'm mostly worried and I feel bad that I'm bringing a baby into this horrible world we live in. Ugh has anyone else get this way, did it go away the moment you held your baby?