am I a bad mom? sorry long post

I'm a first time mom, first pregnancy with my boyfriend and this is also his first child. I'm 20 I'll be 21 this week. I'm 21 weeks pregnant today. I need to find a new doctor/hospital because they're closing down the OB department this summer when I'm due. My doctor told me he can see me until June if I wanted(I'm due in mid July). I'm still under my moms insurance. I had told my nurse what insurance I have and she kept saying I should be covered I didn't know what else to go by besides her word but my mom said to make sure so I contacted someone and I'm not covered at all for my prenatal/delivery. I also have a 2,100 ER bill because I was having mild/moderate bright red bleeding when I was 7 weeks. Anyways I applied for a medical card, I got denied because I didn't send in all my paystubs at the right date. Which I don't remember seeing a date I needed to have them in and I sent it in the week I got the letter so I'm assuming they got it a day or two late. So she told me it'd be better to reapply. I've been paying my prenatal visits out of pocket for the time being. I told my boyfriend this and he was pissed because I already waited so long to hear from them and now we'll have to wait longer just for me to make a mistake again and have to do it over. I told him I know what I did wrong now I'm trying to do the right thing. He kept telling me I need to stop fucking around and figure it out. I said I did because I know what I need to do now. He told me I didn't because what is my plan if I get denied again. Well I didn't really know, I just don't know how this works and who to go to. And He thinks that while I'm at work I can all this and I can't. I can't be on the phone for an hour figuring it out. I barely can look at my phone as it is(I'm a dental assistant). I try when I have time or when I'm off. Anyways we went to a hospital that's a half hour away because it's the closest one there is(a few days ago but it was late so we got a few numbers to call, and the main one I needed didn't answer so I left a message)we decided it's probably best to go there and talk to someone. Well he asked if I bought all my papers(taxes, medical bills I have now just in case we needed it for anything. The numbers the lady gave us the other day to call) and I forgot... he told me I just don't think you give a fuck about this you're so unprepared. Well we found someone to talk to and she said I needed to have some type of coverage to be seen so I just need to wait to hear back about Medicaid(told her I was denied before)and she said they shouldn't deny me because they don't deny pregnant woman who aren't insured. So again just have to wait to hear from them. So as we were leaving he got pissed off at me. Saying how we just wasted a trip because I can't figure shit out. And I'm 21 weeks pregnant you'd think I'd be doing something about getting insured(which I obviously am. I'm doing what I know what I'm suppose to do and there's only so much I can do) and he said word for word "you don't give a fuck about your baby." And just kept going on. I'm beyond hurt he said that to me because I have done nothing wrong. I don't know what I'm doing I'm trying to figure it out. I've been paying for my bills by myself because we agreed I pay for them and he pays to get a new roof. I haven't missed paying one bill. I haven't done anything like drink, smoke, do drugs to put my baby in harm. I just don't have anything for insurance yet because all I can do is wait for someone to get back to me. He just made me feel like I'm the worst mother I can be, so of course I'm starting to think the same. Sorry for the long post it's hard to say just that without explaining everything and just needed to vent I don't have anyone else to talk to.