my experience and the loss..💔👼🏻

I got a d&c done yesterday due to my little boy being severely sick..insurance didn't cover it so I had to get it done at a clinic thankfully they gave us our own room for my family and we're very nice and understanding about my situation. The second I woke up I started balling my eyes out..I didn't have my baby anymore. The nurse came over and asked what was wrong and was very comforting. Iv still been crying. I just hope my baby will forgive me for doing this...Me and his father loved him so much. I just wish it was a different situation than it was so I can have my little boy still. We're planning to get a tatto for him. We're going to use his name (Noah James) a blue faded background with his footprint and the dates. I can't believe how tiny his feet were..I know I may not be able to be with him now but at least I will always have him with me in this way and hopefully he's happy up in heaven..👼🏻💙