after two years my court case is starting .

Two years ago I was raped in my Fiances house , by his cousin . While we were having a party , now I'm 27 weeks pregnant . And having to go through the court case . It took me two years to get over everything and it's like I'm going to have to go through it all again . I'm trying really hard not to have a bad attitude about the whole situation . My mom has been trying to get me to go to counseling because I do have ptsd and anxiety but I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT . I'm over it . I don't know what to do .