Feeling heart broken.

My husband and i want children so badly. We lost our first baby january 2016 (miscarriage) and lost our 2nd baby December 2016 (still birth) our due date is coming up here in 2 weeks and all i want to do is cry! Its so hard. We got the okay from our doctor to start trying again. We both want to get pregnant again. My period is 5 days out and i feel different. Ive felt more tired and just kind of off. But i dont know if its just all in my head becz we want another baby so badly. I just want a healthy living child. Thats my goal in life is to be a mother.