Week 10 after my c section and death of my son

Well, I'm in week ten. My emotions have been all over the place. Its been almost nine months since the birth and death of my son. And a year since my miscarriage before that. I went in at six months with my son Ivan and he passed two days later. I'm scared, nervous, happy, and everything in between. So my first hurdle is to make it past 13 weeks.. Fingers crossed..😘😍😢