Depression.

I'm just feeling like im at my breaking point and I just feel so depressed, im not even myself anymore , i truly dont know what to do. I've been self harming and i feel like im not worth it. I just feel like i have only one way, & that's to take me out. I hate the suffering and i just truly cant do it anymore. im scared to get help because I'm black & having a mental illness in this community is soooo frowned upon. I just really dont know what to do anymore. I'm not even happy at the school I'm at. I cant even open up to anybody. I just needed to vent! I hate feeling worthless, that i'm not wanted anymore . I really cant do this anymore ..