Rant from the heart.

I thought like the dumb person i am that the man i dearly loved loved me to. Dumb and young naive thinking when we met he meant it when he said he would marry me. That i was his queen that i brang him so much happiness and slowly he started to show his true colors his secrets after he convinced me to have a child with him i found put he had 5 other ones by 5 other girls who were still lingering around his life one in which he swore to her he would marry her and wanted to be with her forever. He broke me down completely made me feel like nothing and it was crazy how quick ir happened i started to close up no more telling him everything about me talking to him all day discussing the future just trying to see how true he is. He broke my heart Every day sorry after sorry endless tears not of joy but real pain real heart break. After he breaks me down he loves to smile and play. Im goung crazy i think..... This moring he told me i was forcing him to marry me but i was confused and heart broken because i thought he wanted that now i dont ever want him to marry me i dont want him to touch me as many times as he has brokem me i dont want anything from him not his money not his tshirts i wore so proudly not his laughs not anything and it hurts. I love him but i know he doesnt love me he has proven to me every day he doesnt love me. He wants to take my kid from me when i have her and my world is coming apart as it all comes together. Im leaving him and im just so confused i thought he had my back i thought he loved me he lied to me since the beginning never again. He made sure to let me know im just another bummy baby mama. Yet all of the money ive had since we met i trusted in his hands just for him to run through it for drugs and spend on everyone else not onve has he given anything to me besides an std. Yup an std and im broken but i have to pick up yhis unborn love needs me and i will do anything to see her smile. Ugh im just broken so much dirt so much hurt from one person within only 10 months. Now it ends and i dont know where to begin i just got my own place and i know my daughter will enjoy it