Afraid

I've known I've had genital herpes for almost 4 years now. It's been almost that long since I've been with anyone as well. I feel like I'll never find someone who will want to be with me. I feel so dirty and disgusting. Who would want to be with someone who's going to have a disease for the rest of their life? Does anyone else feel this way? Or is anyone in a relationship, and you have herpes?