Severe depression while pregnant 😢

I've had depression and anxiety my whole life, got on meds when I was 16, I'm now 22 and pregnant with my rainbow baby, I will be 11 weeks tomorrow. Up until last week I've been able to handle my depression for the most part, but it's been getting very severe and scary. I am on 100mg of Zoloft and 30mg of Buspar which are considered the "safer" meds while pregnant. I feel like it's no longer working and I've already been on other medications considered safe awhile back when I was trying to find "the right medication" for me and none of them worked or they made me feel shittier. I'm stuck and feel so lost. Sometimes I even feel like I don't wanna be pregnant and that makes everything worse because then I feel like a terrible mother. Meditation and all that has helped for mild depression but it hasn't worked for my severe depression. It feels like nothing is working and it's starting to make me feel so very hopeless. I've even had self harm thoughts which I've struggled with in the past. I've been having severe panic attacks lately as well, and I know that's so unhealthy for the baby. I don't wanna feel this way while I'm pregnant. I should be overjoyed and beyond happy but I'm not.... I mean I am happy but not happy like I see other moms. I will be talking with my doctor to see what else we can do, I see a therapist once a week, I've tried natural ways to ease my depression, so my question is what else can I do? I just want to sleep my life away because that's the only time I feel okay. I can't go on feeling this way, so if anyone has any encouraging or supportive words, or any advice I'd GREATLY APPRECIATE IT. If anyone is going through the same thing as me it'd be nice to have someone to talk to often or something. Thank you for reading.