discouraged and sad

I don't know why we could get pregnant on an oops and now that we are trying for now close to a year we aren't having any luck. I did the provera- I took the Clomid I don't get why I don't get my rainbow 🌈. We have been BD on the right days I took my ovulation tests. Hubby thinks we are too stressed and suggested we just take a mini break from the meds and doctors and let fate be in control. I agreed but I will still be waiting the 2 week wait and buying dollar store tests. I can't help it. I want it so bad, it doesn't make up for the loss we experienced but it will make it sting a little less. Not to mention it now seems like every time I go somewhere I see twins. It just doesn't seem fair when i had a miscarriage with ours that fate would shove their adorableness in my face at every grocery store I visit. I doubt I am the only person to feel this way but it doesn't make the emotions I feel any less hard to bare.