Well, I'm not sure where to put this, but I need support.

I finally had the guts to leave my abusive SO. He was controlling, manipulative, and verbally/emotionally/sometimes physically abusive. We have one child together, and I had one before we got together that he treated like his own. I moved into my own apartment yesterday. I did fine during the move and through my first night here. Now I'm having a meltdown. I'm terrified I'm going to fail my kids. I've never been on my own without a roommate or my so. I know I'm doing the right thing. My kids deserve to see a happy mom and learn that the way my ex was treating me was unacceptable. Sorry if this doesn't make a whole ton of sense, I'm mid meltdown and really just needed to talk to someone.