Feeling like it'll never get better

So all my life I've been bullied starting back in 5th grade when I was the weird new kid. And then in 6th I was too hairy. 7th I looked like a clown because of my make up. 8th I was a beaner and a freak and needed to go back to my country (I was born in Miami 🙄). 9th I was a "lizbian" and all because I stood up for my transgender friend. I got the shit beaten out me almost everyday and spent most of that grade in the nurse's office. 10th I was a whore. 11th I was an attention seeking slut. 12th I was a bimbo. All the while what kept me going was thinking that once I got to college it would get better. It had to get better. But here I am 22 years old and I'm still getting bullied. My entire dorm room of 5 girls made a group chat to talk bad about me. And I just found that they made that chat in December right after my grandmother died. So while I was grieving they were making fun of me. And it's just made me realize that it doesn't get better because the bullies you grow up with in school follow you into college and into life. It doesn't get better you just learn to live with the pain.