Vibrator..... But my husband doesn't know...

So my husband watches porn, A LOT! like if he's away from me for one night he's gotta do it and he hides it. Or he goes & lies and does it behind my back bc he likes his hands more than sex...

I told him before, that it's not fair that he gets to pleasure himself while I'm getting turned down.. So I told him I wanted a vibrator, and he told me no... Because he said, and I quote "you can't have a dildo because it will feel better than mine, and you'll never want me again."

Which honestly, it's like he doesn't want me to enjoy myself like he does. So I fucking BOUGHT MYSELF ONE.

HE DOESN'T KNOW...

Because I'm scared he'll be pissed. But honestly, if he can watch porn and get off. Why can't i? Fuck! I wanna watch porn and get off, but I can't get off from myself like he can. Plus he can use it on me

But I don't know how I should tell him....

It's hidden in our closet right now....