PP depression/anxiety

I am terrified something is going to happen to me and I will leave my baby without a mother. Or even that I will be hospitalized for something and he will have to be switched to bottles or formula. It makes me so scared. Last night I passed some fairly large clots after I thought my bleeding had tappered off. Now all I can do is be anxious until I know I will be ok. My husband and baby are my life, I don't want anything to happen to our family.