Bad Dreams! Need Support.

I'm recovering from anorexia and bulimia. For a while I counted every single calorie I put in my body. If I went over 200 calories, I made myself throw up. I was in the hospital for 2 weeks with a feeding tube because at that point eating an average amount of food would be extremely dangerous. These pictures are of me today. I'm at a healthy weight and beginning to love myself. However, last night I had a dream that I was talking to my mom about my growing confidence and she said, "But your so fat!?" I started crying and my boyfriend picked me up in my dream and I told him what she said and he said..."She's right. You need to lose weight."