post partum depression and marrijuanna

hey ladies I recently had a baby and I been dealing with post partum I read the symptoms on it so I am certain I got it well I have a appointment this coming Wednesday and until then , I been smoking weed to help me

My question is will they drug test me? I didn't know what to do and weed was the only thing calming me down Is it bad that I smoke it? my depression has caused me and my boyfriend to fight alot and the only thing that calms me down is weed so yea no judgemental comments please.