God give us the strength 💓💓💓

Hey girls, Today my husband and I will get our "fish" results (the preliminary results) from the amniocentisis test. We found out at our 18 week anatomy scan that one of our twin girls more than likely has hypoplastic left heart syndrome (the left part of her heart is underdeveloped) and she has more than normal amount of water on the brain. We decided to have the test done because we wanted to know, and that's the best answer I can give.

I remember months ago when my husband and I spoke about having a baby, I remember telling him I didn't want a baby with down syndrome NOT that I would terminate an unborn baby with down syndrome (no judgement here ladies) but I didn't believe/feel that I had what it took to take care of a baby with down syndrome. The thought scared me, terrified me, froze me in fear.

But as I sit here today knowing that this little girl inside me could very well be down syndrome. I'm not scared anymore of how I'll handle it or if I can do it. I just want her to live, no matter what she has or doesn't have, I choose life for her. I'm not saying that upon hearing that the results are positive their won't be a flood of tears, I believe every woman goes into pregnancy believing, hoping and praying that her child would be ... I guess for lack of better words have "not affected in any way" but now that the possibility is in front of me, I am determined to do everything possible to give this baby the best chance at life.

God bless all you ladies, I pray that each of you who are facing something along the lines of what I'm facing, that God would give you the strength, courage, and wisdom to go on! ❤❤❤❤