Total Gender Depression

OK so before people take offense to this I just want to say that I love my child no matter what the sex is and am so happy for a healthy baby.... OK now on to the issue so my SO and I were gunning for a boy (he has a girl from a previous relationship and I have a boy from a previous relationship) I am not a girly girl at all the color pink makes me want to vomit. So we found out last week that we are having a girl and the doctor looked at me and asked me what was wrong and with tears in my eyes explained that I wanted a boy... Now I will love this little girl whose name is Lillianna Mae and due in October of 2017 unconditionally just like I do my son and my stepdaughter but here's the thing went through a very abusive childhood that includes physical, mental/emotional, and sexual abuse from my biological father... Now I know that her father would NEVER EVER do anything like that to her because of the way he treats me and his daughter but there is that little voice in the back of my head that makes me scared shitless for her especially in this day and age. I know the same thing can happen to little boys but the way I grew up no abuse happened to my brother so I am just afraid that something out of my control will happen to her and that she will go down the same dark path that went down. Sorry for this being so long but it's just something I had to get off my chest