I just got my first period after baby was born. I'm EBF ing but my son will soon be 6 months old so can't rely on BF for BIRTH control.

OMG, my period came back with vengeance. I'm changing my super plus tampons every 1.5 hours. So much blood! This is making me super tired. I nurse my son 4, 5 times a night and every 3 hours during daytime. EXHAUSTING!

Now I have to try to think of a birth control. My IUD got slipped out after insertion and doc says it may happen again. And I don't want hormonal BC. So it's good old condoms again. But wait, my BF doesn't like it. I mean he'll have to use it but he won't be 100% happy plus I'll always wonder if I'm pregnant again.

I hate being a woman TBH. I get to give birth to a new human being but all the crap that comes with it is so annoying. I'm not the most attractive nor the smartest person. So my looks will only deteriorate and not many people like me. Constant pregnancy, menstruation, cleaning, cooking, caring, planning, working, and pleasing to do everyday. And when I get sick all the people and animals that I have to please act as if I took the longest vacation.

Seriously can't wait til I'm old and dead. I mean I'll do what I have to do but I find myself waiting to just die of old age or sickness. I find myself dreaming of just dying. And please let it be that there is no reincarnation for me at least, and especially as a female of any species. It's fucking hard work to be a woman.