Levels? And how did you cope?

Hi everyone... I'm not diagnosed, at least not yet, but I had a test come back 144 where the normal range is 139. I haven't been eating well this week but I made sure to eat really light the day of (just a boiled egg and some cheese.) I guess my major question is what did your levels test as the first time? And for the second question - anyone have trouble coping with the diagnosis? Again, I'm just worried about if I am diagnosed, but I'm so worried about the baby and feel like I've failed her already. I wanted to know if anyone felt similar and how you dealt with guilty or worried feelings.