you are not alone! break the silence like I did

I fell into a great deep depression and I'm not gonna lie I'm still not 100% happy again but I'm getting there.

When I first flew home I still felt like I had someone ( my husband ) and he was trying to be all nice and loving towards me, to an extent. Then the reality kicked in that I'm going to be doing this alone and I'd sit there all day heavily pregnant and just cry and cry so much that my heart would ache. Without exaggerating I wanted it all to end , I wanted to take my life but I'd cry more because I couldn't and I wouldn't because I can't harm my baby. My baby saved me because honest to god if everything still would of happened with how I was treated and I WASNT pregnant I might have ended up doing something I can't undo!

I would try to find counsellors which were available 24/7 but the best website / app I found is TheHopeLine. There is always someone there to listen to your problems and reassure you that you did the right thing and everything's going to be okay.

Now I've had endless heartbreaks and my husband hurt me countless amount of times , to the point that I feel numb so that's helped me out .. seeing even more how much of an abusive messed up jerk he is. 

Now I'm declaring myself homeless as I have no place to live and I'm not getting child support ( not really surprised ).

But what I'm saying is, despite how crap my life got and how rubbish it still is from the aftermath of my marriage failing .. I just want to share a brief of my story and how I'm feeling and that I'm the down days I did think loads of times " oh I won't message my sister or friend I'll only be a burden" well you WONT! Speak out to a loved one if you're ever feeling down. Just do it! Or better still, write out what you're feeling it really really helps. You're not alone ❤️❤️