Mothers Day...

I was a Mother. And I am still at heart. My baby is no longer with us. My 1st Mothers Day that was going to happen after giving birth, dreaming to Hold him on my First while Pregnant, is still continued with Dreaming on holding him. On May 11th, for us Hispanics thats Mothers Day. What Ive always celebrated it on. My SO is Mexican but more "Americanized". So here I was thinking I was going to get a Big Hug atleast or just a "Hey happy Mothers day" but I got nothing. I went to work and was upset, overall. And him not saying it made me upset. Until I mentioned to it and he felt so bad. He mentioned he thought to celebrate it Sunday like they do here. I finally got over it. Because he said hed make it up to me. To cheer me up on This awful Month (My son wouldve turned 10months Today and on the 15th its a Year since the Baby Shower). Well, my SO forgot. He has a daughter from a Previous relationship. And His Mom (She hates me) sent him a Voicemail telling him he better see his daughter or she will tell the mother of his daughter to take his parental rights. Which yes is stupid. He has always been there for his daughter until our baby passed he has been distant to his whole Family. And well he told me he was going to finally see her Sunday. Which is the Only day he Can.  And No, Im Not mad hes going to see his daughter. So please keep that negativity away because I actually Got mad several times he doesnt go see her but thats On Him when he decides he is ready to be near children in general after losing his first son. So hes going to be there all day until 4pm and I said Ok. Inside I wanted to see what he would say after coming home. And he says "So it gives me time to go to work at 5pm" and I didnt let him see how Hurt I am. Because he forgot. I feel like he doesnt see how hurt I am about this Day and how I feel like he has forgot I ever was a Mother. He shouldve just done it May 11th instead of promising me that on Sunday he was planning something.. Nothings going to happen. And I txted him to Not be around me. Because On May 11th I was really upset and all he did was sweet talk to me to get my hopes up for Sunday. Like Thanks. Makes me want to forget what I had planned for him to thank him for being the Father of my son.... Men are so clueless. But I am so hurt and fee stupid for believig he'd celebrate me being a mother and make it special.