I'm a victim

Here recently I became a victim of sexual assault. I'm not gonna get into detail about because I nor do I wanna make you guys uncomfortable. I really need to vent cause right now my mind isn't in the right place. I need lots of pray cause right now at this very moment I just wanna do these crazy things that are going through my head. I feel like I'm alone hand have no one to talk to. I wanna tell my mom or best friend but I'm so afraid that they'll see right through me or think I'm disgusting. I feel so out of it and I feel myself slowly losing my mind there's too much going on in my head. Please, please, please prayer for me😢 I don't know if I posted in the right room so sorry.