Anxiety

So I have been waiting for this doctors appt forever... last 2 months I started with letrozole and did 1 cycle and my period hasn't arrived.. as well I have been feeling changes in my body, I did multiple pregnancy test blue dyes show lightly while pink was nearly invisible. Just recently I was diagnosed with PCOS and I have been trying on my own for about 4 years but after I had everything checked I became confident that I could have my own children... So many stories you read about women who are pregnant but have low HCG and or people who have been pregnant without symptoms, I ask myself which one would be my story of triumph and victory.

I got married in Jan, my husband is ecstatic to have a baby he has 2 girls from previous relationship but always wanted another baby with me....

I'm just venting I feel anxious and nauseous and ugh so many emotions if I get a not pregnant or a pregnant... my menstrual has left me and I guess I'll have to wait for it's return huh