I Want Someone To Be Affectionate With, Not Specifically Him

For a while after breaking up with my boyfriend I was convinced I missed him and loved him and wanted to get back with him even though there was no chance we would get back together. Even after we split and maintained a friendship, I liked hugging him and doing things considered affectionate but they were never returned. I thought I was still in love with him until I read this article. It explained how I felt exactly. It turned out I didn't miss him. I missed being in a relationship. I missed having someone in general to cuddle with and hug. I missed someone in general to go out with and shower with compliments. I missed someone to make love to. I didn't care if it was him or anyone else, I just wanted someone to do those things with. I was convinced I needed him and only him to do these things, but I finslly understand it was just these tokens of genuine affection themselves that brought me such joy. I feel so happy with so much closure now. I haven't found anyone yet to fill his role, but I at least won't be stuck up on him during my search.

http://www.bolde.com/dont-miss-you-miss-being-relationship/