I haven't been trying for longer than most of you on this app but I'm already tired of trying. I guess the discouragement is getting to me. I'm tired of being anxious and hopeful and disappointed and second guessing all in the same month over and over.

I know I can't give up the faith if I want a child but it's hard when you keep it to yourself (mostly because when it does happen you want to surprise everyone and not let hints give it away) and you feel like it'll take years to have my miracle child..