Partner has different sentiments about kids.

So, it is becoming transparent to me that my partner has different sentiments than me about having children. When our relationship began, he expressed a deep desire to have children. Which to me, was important. But, after living with me and my two children this has changed.

It didn't just suddenly change. It happened after two back to back miscarriages. From wanting a baby with me vehemently to very vague time lines on when and under what circumstances it would be "a good time" to have more children.

This was not an issue at first, but it is now. He is irritated every time I ask for reassurance in this matter. I mean, I've lost two of his babies. My heart aches all the time for them. It has been over a year now since then but every pregnancy announcement is a sore reminder. He came in to this relationship wanting more, and then persuading me to TTC when I had initially wanted to wait for the right time. But now, it feels as if he doesn't give a shit about whether or not we do have a child in the future. Where did all those talks about baby names go? All those discussions on how we would parent, together? One primary attraction I had to this relationship has evaporated. I don't feel he is "family centered" as he initially claimed.

I can stand to wait as he is generally a real charm, good with my children from a prior marriage, and a decent guy. I never worry about him cheating or sneaking around. I don't want to take for granted what we do have. He really does a lot for me and m6 children. But, at the end of it all, I know I want another child. My body aches for it. My heart yearns for the appropriate circumstance. I miss the babies we lost and can't wait to hold a healthy newborn. His nonchalance makes me feel that maybe he does not appreciate my parenting style or that he has changed so drastically that we are no longer appropriate together. Maybe he just does not want ME to be the mother of his future children??

But I feel that this is such a deep issue for me. I wholeheartedly want more children. At least one. It is a big issue for me, as I do not feel I could live contentedly without at least trying for another or adopting. I know it in my heart that I want another at some point. And I certainly don't want to wake up beyond my fertile years for having waited.

How should I approach this? Do I just wait it out? Should I just let go of my desire to experience motherhood again, and be grateful for the children I have?

I really appreciate whoever took their time to read this lengthy vent. Thank you.