Do i just give up?

Im currently 23 weeks with our planned baby.

We've been together for almost 3 years. We were engaged, we planned this baby, but we started fighting like cats and dogs.

We broke things off about a month ago, but barely saw each other for a month or so before that (he was supposed to move in in October, and by March I was pissed I was still waiting, especially pregnant and with 3 other kids who treat him like their father).

Anyways, we didn't see each other or talk to each other for a couple weeks, and finally I called him. The conversation went really horrible to really good and we decided we are going to go to counseling. We are both equally wanting it.

Well, with him, his Outlook is "hope for the best, prepare for the worst" the worst being we don't get back together after is all said and done.

One day I take it as he doesn't really want this, but then he says things that are relatively futuristic ie. Us all going camping together, etc. It's so mindfucking.

The funny part is, that a couple weeks ago we didn't talk a lot. When we did we talked to each other nicely and were civil. However, let's say I'd talk to him on a Wednesday, I wouldn't hear from him until like Saturday or Sunday, briefly or if I called him or texted him first.

This changed when I decided to go on a little road trip to a place we used to all go as a family, by myself.

He seemed shocked and kind of hurt I went alone, kind of like an "oh wow, glad you're having fun," with an undertone of "ouch."

I did this trip for my kids and I, and I'm so glad I did. We had so much fun!

Anyways, since then, he calls me every day, multiple times a day. He will come over if I need anything.

My daughter had her tonsils and adenoids out yesterday, and he came by today to bring me some stuff I needed and to see her. He went to a cottage tonight, but then was like "I'll see you later, maybe I'll come by tomorrow."

Anyways, it's all so weird and awkward right now.

Another thing is that he came by on Wednesday to take out the garbage, and was like "can I feel the baby kick?" I was like "yeah, sure, but she's low." So he tried to feel her, to no avail. Then, as I had my legs hanging off the bed, he knelt down with his hands beside my hips and put his head to my belly. When he was leaving, I waved by and said thank you, and he was like "you can give me a hug if you want." So, I'm like yeah sure. He was saying he was going to leave at 10:30pm, but by the time he actually left it was almost midnight. Then he called me as he was driving home.

The next day we talked a bit, and I was just saying how weird our whole situation is because it is still a two week wait for counseling and I just want to get the show on the road. Anyways, he's like "yeah, we can wait though. We are doing okay right now being friends." Then he went on to say that he was afraid that I'm going to want to jump in head first and prompted to the night before. I was like.....wtf. you're the one who asked for the hug, got close to my belly. I was being stand offish for a reason because I didn't want to give him that impression.

So, things are such a confusing mess right now and he's SO hard to read.

Anyone have any insights they'd like to tell me?