Am I horrible for wanting our baby to be as loved as his baby cousin? Mind you there is a back story so sorry if this gets long. My fiances cousin was murdered three years ago. He was very close with his cousin. He would have been five. Now there was debate on if it was his child since the girl in question slept with him and his cousin close together. Proven it was his cousins but he still treated him as if he was his own in many ways. Now we're expecting our first child his first son in September and he just isnt attached. He talks about his cousin with his heart in.His eyes and our son is like nothing. He can't even really talk about him. Im heart broken really. I just dont understand. I sound stupid with the whole situation but hes talking none sense on wanting revenge with no thought to our son and what that could mean for him. He just doesn't seem to care. Can't even stand to feel him kick half the time.