I feel bad for feeling this way 😑

Abi
My LO is 4 months now. Before the birth of my LO me and my DH used to hang out a lot and have fun every weekend or just stay home and relax on Sunday evenings. But now, after the birth of my LO( C-section) we didn't really go out together. I'm so afraid that he might cry and it'll be difficult for me to console him other than home. (Freaked FTM). Even when we try to be close at home, my son cries and spoils the whole mood😥 Everytime( No sex in four months). Today I suddenly felt bad as I couldn't spend time with my husband like we used to. We love spending time with our son a lot 😘 but now it's a whole different world. This is weird. I'm so stupid for thinking this way. Am I the only one?