in need of some friends

So I'm 18-turned in March. I miscarried 2 years ago and didn't even know I was pregnant since I was in a horrible state of mind and very suicidal. It was at 13 weeks approximately that I miscarried, in class. It was the worst pain I had ever experienced. Physically it was 20x worse than period cramps, to the point that I essentially fainted on the way home in the car. I finally got into a relationship with my first love and boyfriend and even though he's not ready for kids and I desperately want one we've decided to NTNP. Currently however, I'm on cycle day 37 and this is my first time actually TTC. . . I'm 5 days late but negative tests. . . I would like some friends. . . Those who are in the same boat as me relatively. . . Or have the same issue right now or are around the same age. . . It's lonely going through the struggle alone. . .