should I stay or should I go?.....idk

My first love and I have been together on and off for the last 8 years, and throughout it all we've had our good and bad times but there's still a lot of love. We'd recently had one of our worst of times which led to us not speaking for almost five months. But I missed him terribly so I let him back into my life.... he promised things were going to change and those months we were apart he was depressed, he missed me everyday, and it showed him how much he didn't want me out of his life.....but nothing's changed. He only wants to see me when it's convient for him, we make plans together and then he goes behind my back and makes plans with his friends and wants me to wait until he's done with THEM. And when I spazz and tell him how I feel he's not treating me like a priority, I get met with empty apologies or he says "oh your thinking too much about it, there's no point in even arguing about this" Or he'll say "I never told you that we'd hang out, I told you I had plans with the guys" 😑 Finally once I do get to see him, all he wants to do is lay around the house and smoke. He keeps saying I know you hate how things are and you hate just sitting in the house but you just have to give me some time, things are going to change I'm just taking it slow like you asked 😑🤦🏾‍♀️ smh taking it slow and trying to make things work doesn't mean you treat me like a piece of sh*t. idk what to do I feel sad, stupid, confused and frustrated all at the same time 😞