I just recently found out a I was pregnant

I just recently found out a I was pregnant. Words can't describe how happy I was. Until my doctor started asking me about my period history and when the last period was. It didn't make sense for me to be pregnant seeing as I had just finished my period less than a week ago. Somehow my doctor just didn't seem concerned enough so I decided to take matters in my own hands. I drove to the local hospital and told them straight up that I think I was having a miscarriage. It was the longest day of my entire life. After poking, prodding and probing me, a doctor finally came up to me in the middle of the waiting room and announced to me and everyone around me that I was having an Ectopic pregnancy. This means that the egg has implanted itself my right Fallopian tube. I broke down in front of everyone. My mom and my boyfriend were on their way to the hospital so I was completely alone standing in that waiting room. The doctor had no compassion whatsoever and left me standing there crying in front of everyone. The doctor called an ObGYN to come and talk to me about my options. I could either have a surgery to remove the egg or I could get an injection of Methotrexate that would "kill the baby". Those were literally the words I heard. As if I wasn't already devastated. I had some many things running through my mind. How do I tell my boyfriend, on Father's Day, that I had lost the baby? How do I face my mother and tell her that I can no longer give her her grandchild? How do I look in the mirror and know that I am not a mother? I have yet to understand why or how this happened. I do know that one day I will heal and I may even try again but I don't think it will ever be same. I, won't ever be the same.