Hit a low point..

Once in a great while I self-pleasure, usually when I've gone too long without orgasming when have sex with my SO. Well tonight I thought it's been a minute since the last time I had one, might just get what I deserve. 😊 So here I'm trying to get into it knowing all the right things to do, with the lights out in my bedroom, and (I'm sure like most other people) I think of an image or memory to motivate me. You know the usual, whether it's the SO, a celeb fantasy, or maybe on the occasion an EX(I'm not gunna lie, it happens)😅. Well my mind is drawing blanks on all accounts. I can't think of a single thing to help at all. Nothing. So I just stare into the dark abyss, finish off, wash up, then come back and lay here thinking "what the hell?!".😕 Saddest pleasure moment thus far.... 😖

P.S. probably didn't help I was/still mad at my SO about something simple and stupid. 🙄