My soul hurts

Lauren • Mc in feb 2014- ttc 1st!
I am so sad- another failed month. Officially one year of ttc since our miscarriage last February, in total ttc for 18 months. I know that is a short period of time looking at the big picture, but my whole body and soul hurts. I have heard pregnancy announcements all around me- I am happy for them and so jelous. 
My DH wants it as much as I do, but he says it's awkward how much I want to talk about us getting there. I feel like I can't be the women or the wife he needs. Tears of pain just roll down my cheek thinking of this process!