Rant - I'm so tired of seeing that BFN!

Here I am 11 years later TRYING and nothing. Month after month, I TRY and all I get is negative pregnancy tests, periods and a broken heart. I try not talk about it with my SO bc he wants this so bad. He is such a good man and deserves to have a son/daughter of his own. He's so good with mine.  I don't want to get his hopes up, to just let him down again, but this time I did. I thought I saw a line so I told him this might be our month. He fell asleep with his hand on my belly. I retested today and nothing. Line eyes must have gotten the best of me. 

I really don't have anything important to say, I just needed to get all of this off my chest. No one knows we have been trying so I feel like this app is my outlet. I guess here's to month 8 of trying...