anxiety 😣

The pain feels so real I'm starting to believe that I'm actually sick , my head feels like it floating, I hate that I allow it to control me , , people would say that's in all in my head so what if it is " they think if they say that it would magically go away " I tell myself it's not real its not real hoping the unwanted would run away but it just creeps up & gets worse , my throat gets tight it feels like someone is choking me , my head spins it feels like a tumor or a brain aneurysm " but of course I'm just freaking myself out " when does it go away , when will I have to stop faking that I am ok ?