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How do I deal with postpartum depression when I feel like I am just drowning in it . I was currently trying to deal with it my self and didn't tell anyone I had it until today my mom came over when I was having a complete melt down I do however take a medication that helps with my anxiety really bad that is also used for depression and what not but I haven't taken it for a couple days . I feel like so much just got to me at once with that going on , my husband brother who killed him self all his dates are coming up to my husband uncle who passed a couple days ago who lost his battle to cancer . I knew something was up today when I just slept the day away and it took everything I had to get my self to get out of bed . I am trying to be okay for me and my 2 little girls . What are some things that helped you ladies out I have only told a couple people cause I don't want to be smothered over all of it .