just a mess of crap

I feel like an absolute mess. My boyfriend and I have been going through just a rough time communicating and when we do it's yelling. I feel like he doesn't see what I mean and always has to argue. I know some things are pure horomones and I still can't stop myself from crying. Today he's told me one of the reasons he isn't turned on by me is that I cry. (One of our issues) and I don't think he gets that I really really can not control it like he wants. I feel already like I'm shit and now we aren't going to have sex because I'm insecure because we aren't having sex!!!