Ok, I need to rant

Nothing messes with my head (and my heart) more than buying new clothes. I have put on a ton of weight in the last five years, and to add insult to injury about being bummed about that I can't find anything that fits. A size 18 in one brand is no where near the same size in another brand. If you can even find it in the stores! A lot of places around where I live don't offer many plus sizes in the stores, so you gotta go online and by their size charts (which never seem accurate, seriously, have those people ever seen a measuring tape?!?) So you send up a wish and a prayer and hit order, just to receive it, look like a stuffed sausage, and have to send it back. It's frustrating to no end! My husband thinks I'm beautiful the way I am, but I want to feel beautiful (and not have my pants cut into my stomach all day and make me grumpy lol.) I also don't want to have to pay more money because there's more of me to love hahaha. End of rant 😂