Is anyone else unhappy?

Kylee • Mommy to a little boy💙
I am expecting baby #1 and this would be my so's #2. We hardly ever get along and are always fighting. It has even went on the physical side. He tells me more about how he hates me than he tells me he loves me. I come last every time. Even when I do try to make it work he wants no part. He says it all me and I need some reason to complain and nag. I'm just unhappy and I don't know what to. If I leave I know I will miss him and I really don't want that and I also know I wouldn't let him have visitation with out me there just because of what I've seen he has a temper. I don't want my child going with out a dad I lost mine at age 13 but I also know the baby would be fine either way. Helpppp