Alright. I'm gonna rant. hard.

Why the frick is it that I can't just be thin. I get it that it's a lot of work to get in shape but I try all the time and I get NOWHERE. I want to be happy with my body SO BAD! I just want to feel confident and be able to throw my shirt off whenever I want to and not feel like "oh do I look okay?" AHHHHH WHAT THE HECK!! Everyone is like "you have the perfect body", "I wish I was as thin as you", but it doesn't matter unless I like the way I look! I'm thankful or whatever but I just want to be happy. I. actually crying typing this because I'm so frustrated! I starved myself for a week! I was so drained. And I was doing amazing for my diet but just a few minutes ago I ruined it!! I ate a hamburger. That's no way to lose weight! I took the bun off but I still feel like shit about it. I want to love myself with my clothes off. :( I'm sick of seeing these perfect people all over and then downing myself. Why is so it so hard :(