TRULY TRULY HURT and my depression is getting worse !

Like how long can someone continue to treat you like shit day after day. I have no life I do nothing I'm a bum I don't have money all I do is complain. Yet I pay for insurance his insurance is in my grandfathers name and so is his car....i work 7 days a weeks no days off unless I get to call in which I never can. The apartment is in my name and my grandfather co-signed for that as well. Yet I do nothing... he's been in jail for the pat 4 years this is his first year out first year having to pay bills seeing as before jail he lived with his very passive aggressive miserable mother who waited on him hand and foot and not to mention when we were younger he used to put his hands on me and his mother would just console him and justify everything to make him feel like what he did had a valid reason for it. I waited (faithfully) all four years for him to come home for him to start his shit just a year later. People don't change and if they do it's a hoax all for show just to get what they wan. Then it's back to their old selfs again! I got him a brand new iPhone 7 ready for him when he got out. Not to mention a place to live and eat and shower and a phone to call the entire time he was locked up. I stayed because I do love him but I'm not sure I even like him anymore 8 years later and we are the furthest we've ever been and at this point doesn't cheat or hit me. But the anger is still the same that I almost think it's coming again and I do not like that feeling and I cannot do this anymore I don't know what to do I really don't our life's are built together so much pain to come if we leave each other but I just can't take the verbal abuse anymore.

The physical abuse has now turned into verbal and emotional and he knows it works so he just won't stop.

Sorry I have nobody and I mean NOBODY to vent or talk to